Garden of Shannon

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Dear Diary No. 2 | Luxury of Doubt and Libraries

A lady take a chance on her life to become a businesswoman once again while still writing seriously.

A wise man once said doubt is a luxury that one cannot afford. The feeling of uncertainty has been tackling my mind when it comes to going back into the real estate industry part time to make some extra scratch while I continue to write. But there has been this seed of hesitancy that I have been trying to keep from sprouting. I have thought about this pursuit for some months and have decided to act.

While my mind has been racing like the fastest horse at the Kentucky derby. I have been trying to slow my body down and do one of my favorite things – go out into the community and relax in nature. I was feeling a bit suffocated and anxious due to all the mind flutter I damn near blew a fuse. I needed to exercise my mind and my body, so I decided to try something new with my husband. “Instead of driving let’s take the valley metro trail to a new library, get some lunch, play some Pokémon and walk around downtown.” He lit up with excitement. We set plans in motion. I became the happiest girl. My husband, a satisfied man.

It was a good time out. The sun followed us like a burning shadow nonetheless manageable than most days. We went to Burton Barr Library – a six-story building with art collections throughout, immaculate study rooms and of course books galore. I cannot wait to go back and study at one of those desks for hours on end. I did check out some books on improving my writing. I am thrilled about this reading material. I hope to gain much knowledge from such authors and put that information to use.

After our library visit we decided to stride through the lively downtown streets looking for a good snack. We came across a creative and charming restaurant named Lovebite Dumplings serving pork, chicken and veggie dumplings with your choice of noodles or rice – the food was delicious and packed with flavor. I decided to take a picture in front of the restaurant because I thought it to be nice looking.

Downtown Phoenix, Sep 2025

Now that our bellies are full and feeling fatigued from all the activity, we decided to make our way back home where we relaxed in our cozy apartment drinking cold drinks and watching old movies starring Joan Crawford. The weekend was a win.

-S.B. Garner



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